I'm a loser baby.. so why don't you kill me..

Sat, 04 Jun 2005 17:07:13 GMT

Boredom leads to this stupid shit! Of course it's not stupid when you're bored! Then it's interesting! Too many exclamation marks, im not actually that excited!

FIRSTS..

First best friend: Hugo! now hes a wigger.. shame
First car: 2001 Dodge Neon.. want it back
First date: ??
First real kiss: wow.. the stories
First screen name: smankind69.. cool s/n when youre 11! the 69 was daring
First self purchased CD: Aerosmith random CD
First pets: 2 parakeets
First piercing/tattoo: None. im pure
First artist/song you remember hearing in your house: jorge ferreira

LASTS..

Last cigarette: the last time i was piss drunk
Last car ride: a few months ago when that cop came
Last kiss: last night
Last good cry: no such thing as a good cry
Last library book checked out: 5 Hitler books. For a project, I swear.
Last movie seen: Sideways
Last beverage drank: Capri Sun Fruit Punch
Last food consumed: Cheesecake
Last crush: Rita
Last phone call: Home, Mom, Ana, Alex in that order
Last time showered: yesterday before therapy
Last shoes worn: the red RJ sneakers
Last cd played: Alanis! ahahah
Last item bought: Popeyes for my brother, good stuff.. this made me realize i forgot to give ana money for rivs yesterday dont think i forgot
Last annoyance: people driving like idiots by people i mean mexicans and brazilians mostly so not really people
Last disappointment: nets getting swept
Last shirt worn: Superman!
Last website visited: myspace or rajah
Last word you said: Ehh to my mom its a Joelized version of hi how are you this morning
Last song you sang: Alanis track 11.. i mean.. METALLICA or SLIPKNOT yea cuz im hardkore!!1

QUESTIONS..

1. What time did you get up this morning? 12

2. Diamonds or pearls? whats the difference

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? lol

4. What is your favorite TV show? rasslin? i guess

5. What did you have for breakfast? nothign but thats a silly answer so cocoa pebbles yesterday

6. What is your middle name? i have 4 names so there's no middle name.

7. What is your favorite cuisine? portuguese of course or is it italian

8. What foods do you dislike? Bacon, corn, some fish, sopa de feijao, ham, fake turkey, bologna

9. What is your favorite chip flavor? regular cant stand the Spicy Hot Tamale Whipped Cream Sour Onions chips

10. What is your favorite CD at the moment? Current Cd is Kona Town.. all time probably Pink Floyd- DSOTM or Nirvana Unplugged

11. What type of car do you drive? 2001 Toyota Avalon =(

12. Favorite sandwich? anything that doesnt include ham, fake turkey, bologna and shit like that.. so that doesnt leave many sandwiches i do like

13. What characteristic do you despise? people being fake.

14. Favorite item of clothing? my Nets NJ logo Finals 2002 shirt.. ill be wearing it forever no one can take it away

15. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation? anywhere but portugal!

16. What is the color of your Bathroom? i dont give enough of a shit to go check.

17. Favorite Brand of Clothing? nike?

18. Where would you retire to? to my beach house that im gonna be in my mid 20s.. yeah....

19. Favorite time of the day? anytime im actually doing something

20. What was your most memorable birthday? 4th.. one of my first memories is bugging the shit out of my mom asking when my 4th birthday was coming. then it came and it was shit.. but ohh well.. birthdays are overrated

21. Where were you born? leiria in portugal at the old shitty hospital that i almost died at

22. Favorite sport to watch? basketball when the nets are winning, football if not.. or international soccer man that shit is great

25. What fabric detergent do you use? ask my mom

26. Coke or Pepsi? same shit different can

27. Are you a morning person or a night owl? both

28. What is your shoe size? 14

29. Do you have any pet? yeah tommy he went out for a walk though

30.Any exciting news you'd like to share with your family & friends? my family reads lj? shit.

31. What did you want to be when you were little? i never knew.never had any idea whatsoever.. still dont really

32. What are you meant to be doing now? owning stuff.

Note: This is fucking long.

FAVORITES..

[Color] green
[Number] 44 - keith van horn
[Animal] tigers are awesome
[Drinks] alcoholic? definately beer.
[Soda] mountain dew
[Book] Catcher in the Rye

[Color your hair?] no
[Have tattoos?] no
[Have Piercings?] no
[Cheat on tests/homework?] ahahahahahahahaha Mr Gs religion class ahaha hell, all of high school. most of grammar school.
[Like roller coasters?] hell yes. im hard to please though. dont give me any shitty coasters that hurt my neck.
[Wish you could live somewhere else?] no way.
[Want more piercings?] no
[Like cleaning?] no
[Write in cursive or print?] both.. its just whatever comes out. sometimes my notes are written half cursive half print on the same page.
[Sweat a lot?] i think if we took a survey of the amount that people sweat my name would be right in the fuckin middle! (mitcchhh)
[Know how to drive?] yes, very well too
[Own a cell phone?] yes
[Ever get off the damn computer?] yes

HAVE YOU EVER?...

[Been in a fist fight?] been close about 1000 times.
[Kicked someone in the nuts?] no.. actually yeah! Jeff was running at me like a savage so i just stuck out my foot and he just kept running. it wasn't pretty. but it wasnt my fault he ran into my foot.
[Stolen anything?] no?
[Held a gun?] no
[Drank?] once or twice
[Been so drunk you couldn't remember your name?] what the shit.. no
[Considered a life of crime?] yeah the other day i considered selling drugs
[Considered being a hooker?] i dont have the necessary equipment
[Cheated on someone? ] no
[Cried over a boy?] this is a sexist survey.. guys can be bored too
[Lied to someone?] everyone has
[Been in love?] yes <3
[Fallen for your best friend?] i should delete this portion of the survey!
[Made out with JUST a friend?] i guess .. no not her! stop getting mad!
[Been rejected?] NEVER muahaha
[Been in lust?] who hasnt
[Used someone?] maybe?
[Been used?] maybe?

CURRENTS...

[Current clothing} same clothes i went out with last night.. superman shirt, basketball shorts, stocking. im good enough to pull it off
[Current mood] blah
[Current taste] saliva
[Current hair] sexy as always
[Current thing I ought to be doing] nothing which is why im doing this
[Current cds in stereo] random zeppelin, hendrix and pink floyd are always in there
[Current job] damnit..

THE LAST TIME YOU...

[Last book you read] the bluest eye for school
[Last movie you saw] sideways. this is getting repetitive
[Last thing you ate] cheescake!
[Last person you talked to on the phone] my lovely mother

Do you...
[Do drugs?] no
[Have a dream that keeps coming back?] no, i wish they would though. Exploring Ann St. with Matt Hardy was fun.
[Play an instrument?] no im not good at anything
[Believe there is life on other planets?] no.
[Remember your first love?] yep <3
[Still love him/her?] yess
[Read the newspaper?] all the time
[Have any gay or lesbian friends?] yes..
[Believe in miracles?] nope, impossible to believe in miracles when there is no god
[Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?] if you have no common sense, then yes.
[Do well in school?] it has gradually gone down.. Ann St nearly straight As.. QP As and Bs.. College struggle through the whole semester and end up just barely getting a B or C cause of the massive curve. its beautiful.
[Go to or plan to go to college] RU nigga
[Wear hats?] yeah red nj hat forever
[Hate yourself?] no im a wonderful creature
[Have an obsession?] yes, i love sports cards and ana
[Have a secret crush?] no!
[Collect anything?] cards, sports stuff
[Have a best friend?] sure
[Like your handwriting?] it changes all the time. if i go and look at a notebook from junior year it would look like someone elses writing.. it all depends on how im feeling i think
[Care about looks?] of course. anyone that says no is a filthy liar

LOVE LIFE...

[First crush] some girl nina..1st grade.. now shes fat and disgusting i think
[Do you believe in love at first sight?] nope
[Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing?] i dont think
[Are you a tease?] im a guy
[Shy to make the first move?] aha yes.

ARE YOU A...

[Wuss] i manage to get myself into fights but then never actually do anything. i dont care if they think im a pussy..
[Druggy] never
[Daydreamer] no.
[Freak] depends on your definition of freak.
[Dork] depends who you ask
[Bitch/Asshole] forever
[Brat] no.
[Sarcastic] yes. i am great
[Angel] no.
[Devil] no such thing damnit
[Shy] not usually
[Talkative] depends.
[Flirty] not really.

good lord...

Sat, 28 May 2005 06:49:59 GMT

im going to kill myself

i leave everything i own to brian. i would say somebody else but hes the only one that reads this

Sun, 08 May 2005 14:58:46 GMT

Brian is going to Hell for 10 days.

I will feel your pain. Hang in there, you'll be back and working full time before you even realize it.

O.A.R....

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 15:01:28 GMT

So I said Johnny whatcha doing tonight?
He looked at me with a face full of fright
And I said, how bout a revolution?
And he said right.
I say of, you say a
I say revolution, and you say die
I say of, you say a
I say revolution, and you say die
I say of, you say a
I say revolution, and you say die
I say of, you say a
I say revolution, and you say die dah dah
Day day oh!

That shit has been stuck in my head for days! I have discovered a great band O.A.R. and I have to thank Pepper for that! Without them I wouldn't have known of this greatness.

What a Weekend!

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 16:08:28 GMT

God damn, what a weekend!

First, I dislocate my ankle..or would it be a dislocated foot? Either way, my foot came right out and was bent inwards. It happened while playing basketball. I beat one guy off the dribble (shocking I know) and then jumped up to make the layup. On the way down, I landed on another guy's foot and my foot just gave way and bent right in.

I fell right to the floor and tried to move it but couldnt. Right away I screamed for them to call for an ambulance but they were all half Mexican/Brazilian/SomeImmigrant and barely spoke English. So there I am calling and screaming that I need an ambulance. It's quite amazing how stupid police/ambulance people can be.

Me: I need an ambulance! I just broke my fucking ankle Im at Riverbank Park in Newark!
911: Where exactly?
Me: The basketball courts in Riverbank Park! Please I need help!
911: Ok. What is the address of the location you are located?
Me: RIVERBANK PARK
911: Ok. Where exactly is that?
Me: RIVERBANK ON MARKET PLEASE SEND SOME ONE IM IN FUCKING PAIN
911: Can you describe the location for me please sir?
Me: ITS RIVERBANK PARK GOD DAMNIT!! Next to Somme St and Raymond Blvd!! There's a fucking Dunkin Donuts and a house and a fucking tree! Hurry the hell up Im in pain
911: (getting mad) Calm down sir they are on their way.

They're on their way huh? There I am laying in pain for a good 15 minutes. Stupid sons of bitches.

Turns out its a dislocation and I'll be in a cast for 6-8 weeks. Fucking great.

Then Sunday, Ana gets into a car accident on my street. Thankfully she's ok.. But I'm starting to think I'm cursed!

Also, Jeff got the flu. But that's fucking funny... ahahahah

New K-Rock!

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 02:48:37 GMT

I fucking LOVE the new K-Rock setup they have.

I just heard LED ZEPPELIN, Weezer, Metallica, Ozzy, Nirvana, Foo Fighters, and Queens of the Stone Age within the span of a half hour. Holy shit!

I had just about given up on K-Rock too.. It was down there with Z100 cause of that Taking Back Sunday and The Used shit.

"Great Rock. Period" every 5 minutes gets real fuckin annoying though.

The Fucking Man- Mitch Hedberg

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 17:59:33 GMT

-Foosball fucked up my perception of soccer. I thought you had to kick the ball and then spin 'round and round. I can't do a back flip, much less several...simultaneously with two other guys, that look exactly like me.
_____________________________

-I opened-up a thing of yogurt and under the lid it said, "Please try again." I thought I opened it wrong. Apparantly they were having a contest that I was unaware of... Or maybe Yoplait was trying to inspire me... "Come on Mitchell, don't give up!" An inspirational message from your friends at Yoplait, fruit on the bottom, hope on top...
_____________________________

-I used to live here in Los Angelas on Sierra Bonita,
And I had an apartment
And I had a neighbor
And whenever he would knock on my wall

I knew that he would want me to turn my music down.
And that made me angry because I like loud music
So when he knocked on my wall
I'd mess with his head

I'd say,
"GO AROUND."
"I cannot open the wall."
"I don't know if you have a doorknob on the other side"
"But over here there's nothing."
"It's just flat."
_____________________________

-I don't have a girfriend
I just know a girl
who would get really mad
If she heard me say that...
_____________________________

-On stoplights red means stop, green means go, and yellow means yeild. On a banana its just the opposit. Green means wait, yellow means go, and red means where the fuck did you get that banana??
_____________________________
-I had a stick of Carefree gum, but it didn't work. I felt pretty good while I was blowing that bubble, but as soon as the gum lost its flavor, I was back to pondering my mortality.
_____________________________
-I was walking by a dry cleaner at 3am and the sign said 'sorry, we're closed'. You don't have to be sorry, it's 3am and you're a dry cleaner. It would be ridiculous for me to expect you to be open. I'm not going to walk in at 10am and say hey man I walked by at 3 and you guys were closed. Somebody owes me an apology.
_____________________________
I don't have a microwave oven...
but I do have a clock that occasionally cooks shit...
_____________________________
I went to see a doctor, all he did was suck blood from my neck...
Don't go see Dr. Acula...
_____________________________
I want to hang a map of the world in my house
Then I'm going to put pins into all the locations that I've travelled to
But first I'm going to have to travel to the top two corners of the map
So it won't fall down...

_____________________________

I was in downtown Boise Idaho
And I saw a duck
And I knew the duck was lost
Because ducks ain't supposed to be downtown
There's nothin' for 'em there...

So I went to a Subway sandwich shop
I said "let me have a bun"
But she wouldn't sell me just the bun
She said I had to have something on it...

She told me it was against regulations
For Subway to sell just the bun
I guess the two halves
Ain't supposed to touch...

So I said, "Alright, well put some lettuce on it"
Which they did
They said, "That'll be a dollar seventy five"
I said, "It's for a duck"
They said, "Alright, well then it's free"

See, I did not know that
Ducks eat for free at Subway
Had I known that,
I would've ordered a much larger sandwich

"Let me have the Steak Fajita sub"
"But don't bother ringin' it up"
"It's for a duck!"

"There are six ducks out there
And they all want Sun Chips!"

I find that ducks' opinion of me
is very much influenced
over whether or not I have bread
_____________________________
I have an oscillating fan at my house,the fan goes back and forth.
It looks like the fan is saying no, so I like to ask it questions a fan would say no to.
Do you keep my hair in place?
Do you keep my documents in order?
Do you have 3 settings?
LIAR!
My fan fuckin lied to me.
Now I will pull the pin up.
Now you ain't sayin shit.
_____________________________
When I'm in the south they say "Ya'll"
In the south they take out the O and the U.
So when I'm in the south I try to talk like that so people understand me.
Hello can I have a bowl of chicken noodle sp?
come on I'm in the south you understand.
I mean I'm in the sth and I want some sp.
I stubbed my toe ch.
I need to lay down on the cch.
I need to get the fck t f the sth!
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I could go on for days.. DAYS I TELL YOU.. Man, rest in peace you silly bastard.

A Sad Week

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 19:57:33 GMT

Johnnie Cochran, Frank Perdue, and The Pope have died this week.

More importantly, Mitch Hedberg died. Fuck the pope. CNN should be reporting on Mitch.

R.I.P Mitch. You were absolutely my favorite standup comedian. Your CD will be played in my car for weeks.. and I'll think its funny everytime.

DANCING BILLY GUNN

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 01:43:11 GMT

Music

Fri, 25 Mar 2005 17:06:33 GMT

Whoaa Weezer tickets go on sale today.

The new album will probably be complete shit but it doesn't even matter. They can release tapes of themselves on the toilet for the next ten years and I'd still love em. Blue Album & Pinkerton are just that damn good in a goofy, guilty pleasure kind of way.

"Beverly Hills" is the first single and its by far one of the worst Weezer songs I've ever heard. But you know what?! I love them.. That f'n Blue Album is still the most played CD in my stereo. Why? I don't know..

White Stripes have a new album in June. Now that is gonna be fucking good. Jack White is pretty damn good.

Also, The Beautiful Girls are amazing. "Music", "So It Seems", "Learn Yourself", and "Blackbird" are my favorite tracks off the last album. I've gotta get to downloading (and eventually buying) all of their shit.

Pepper is now big time. Woop. Shame that its with a song that doesn't sound anything like their other stuff. They already sound different on the 3rd album so now I wouldn't be surprised to see a complete selling out. I don't blame them, but.. damn...

Thanks to Brian and Chrystianne.. Working Out.

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 23:09:07 GMT

I really gotta start getting into a more regular working out routine. As of now, I just do a couple sit ups, leg exercises, a pushup, and play basketball whenever it comes to me. I should start doing all that stuff every day plus lifting some weights (by weights I mean the bar).

So I'm thinking of getting a gym membership. I think I'd go if I had one and especially if it had a court to play. Who wants to come with me?! ... no one... excellent! I don't wanna go alone though thats what sucks.

I get annoyed with myself sometimes when it comes to this. In the winter I usually gain a few pounds, but nothing serious. This winter has been off the charts. I'm creeping back into fat-kid territory, which fuckin' blows. What annoys me is that I'll see a cookie and just leave it there and go to my room. But like 5 minutes later I'll think about it again and I'll just HAVE to eat it. Bullshit! I am stronger than that cookie! I wish I had more self control.

I wanna put on some muscle. Playing basketball isn't gonna do that, unfortunately. That sucks, because playing ball is my answer to everything. It's just so much fun and a good workout all around. Enough rambling, I've gotten my point across.. I think..

Mon, 07 Mar 2005 16:54:58 GMT

If you got a problem with your love affair,
If you got a problem with your love affair,
Cry to someone who cares but don’t cry to me!

Party at Omerza's

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 23:47:54 GMT

Man, the party at Omerza's was fucking awesome. There was a good 25 people there. What an idiot, he's lucky the cops didn't come.. but hey whatever its not my house. I had like 7 beers and I was just hanging out talking to some people I hadn't seen in awhile.

It's funny as hell, those people love me. I know its cause they're all drunk as hell but I love it when somebody I saw once 6 months ago comes up to me and they're like "JOOOOEEELLLLL YEAH NEWARK IN DA HOUSE!!"

So they're playing the usual rap shit, but then Omerza goes to the computer and puts on some fucking QUEEN. Bohemian Rhapsody and of course I get up right away. Me, Jeff, and Omerza make a little circle and we start singing along word for word. Within seconds theres like 15 guys around us screaming along. All the girls are standing back laughing and asking themselves "what the fuck??" Just imagine a bunch of drunks singing Bohemian Rhapsody. hahahahaha Then he follows it up with We Are The Champions.. awesome, just fucking awesome!

On the way home, I talked/screamed/sang to Ana and then went to her house to hump her leg. All in all, a good night.

New Music and Job

Fri, 04 Mar 2005 15:42:56 GMT

So something scary is happening... I'm actually in love with 2 NEW CURRENT bands.

Pepper
and
The Beautiful Girls

TBG are fucking awesome. They're more instrumental, relaxed, laid back, sometimes Dylanesque, and sometimes blues. What a mix. I can't get enough of "Cash Money", "Music", and "So It Seems." Now, I need to wait a week to get paid so I can go buy some CDs. Beautiful Girls are fucking awesome- download some shit.

Speaking of getting paid, I got a job! Cleaning toilets with Jeff! Wow, who would've thought, years ago, that me and Jeff would end up together cleaning toilets?! I mean, we're both such intelligent and good looking young men. We should be modeling or acting. It's a fun job though. I definately can't deny that. I know I'm gonna have some fun times with Old Man Jim, Jimmy, and the other cunt.

While cleaning toilets does sound like a shit job, (hahahahaha no pun intended) it actually isn't that bad. I get there at 12 or 1 and hang out doing absolutely nothing till 3:15. Then, after all the kids leave we start actually cleaning. So it's 3 hours hanging out or doing random shit and 3 actually working. A total of 6 hours at $7 means I take home $42 a day. Ha, eat shit, KMart.

Mon, 28 Feb 2005 16:30:55 GMT

It's a sad state of affairs when people won't even let me comment on their LJs... Man, that hurts.

Hahahahahahahahahaha

Answer my call, man.

aaaaaaaaaahahahahahahaha

Pepper

Mon, 28 Feb 2005 15:41:31 GMT

So literally the day after I watch them live, Pepper appears on The Buzz with Matt Pinfield. They played Ashes and 7 Weeks which was cool but then around 11:00 they played Give It Up aka Dirty Hot Sex and I marked out. That was fucking awesome. And since then, the song has been added to regular rotation. As they like to say, Go request the shit out of that song!!

Sat, 26 Feb 2005 06:11:17 GMT

R.I.P
Patrick Gaspar
BORN-1986
OFFICIALLY WHIPPED FOR THE REST OF HIS LIFE-2005

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 19:22:47 GMT

I just wanna see my cool new icon. Woooo Pepper tomorrow night then (hopefully) a Nets game on Sunday.. Should be awesome.

Best. Dream. EVER.

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 01:06:47 GMT

Check out this crazy dream I just had it was fuckin awesome!

So I'm walking down the street and I see my dad there and he's there trying to help an old lady get up. These puerto rican gangster wannabe kids are walking away and laughing so I supposed they knocked her down. (WTF to my dad helping up an old lady?) My dads helpin her up, actually, more like forcing her up and she was in pain. So I start talking shit to one of the kids and he comes back and shoves me. I knock him down and fucking SMASH HIS HEAD UNDER MY DADS CAR! I'm not even kidding. He got a huge cut on his forehead and somehow my lip was all busted open too, I was coughing up tons of blood.

Then for some reason we all go into the same house (?!) and the cops come.. they ask what happened and out of nowhere a bunch of gangsters come up to me all dressed in orange... and then I woke up! Damnit! I wanna know what the Killa Orangez would've done to me!

You know how you only dream of things you'd do. Like you don't go around raping girls. I guess I would want to slam a fake gangster's head into a car. Actually, I know I'd take great pleasure in it. Hahahahaha this shit was hilarious.

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 00:57:37 GMT

7:57 pm:
----------------EVER------------------
1) Been so drunk you blacked out: I got close enough and don't wanna revisit that.
2) Been hurt emotionally: Not really.
3) Kept a secret from everyone: Sure.
4) Had an imaginary friend: Haha no and anyone that does has to be fucked up in so many ways.
5) Cried during a movie: Yeah.. imagine if I actually watched movies..
6) Had a crush on a teacher: I never even thought a teacher was hot.
7) Ever thought an animated character was hot: No. I remember some kid in 5th grade claiming that Lola from Space Jam was hot.. uhh yeah dude other then the fact that she's an ANIMATED RABBIT
8) Had a New Kids on the Block tape: Before my time!
9) Been on stage: Yeah! I was the oak tree in 2nd grade!
10) Cut your hair yourself: Yeah....oops.

----------------FAVORITES------------------
11) Shampoo: Herbal Essence
12) Color(s): Red, black
13) Day/Night: Depends what I want to do, obviously.
14) Summer/Winter: Spring
15) Lace or satin: Satin
16) Fave cartoon Characters: Simba
17) Favorite Food: Picadinho haha actually more like McDonalds
18) Fave movie(s): Forrest Gump
19) Fave Ice Cream: Strawberry
20) Fave School Subject(s): RELIGION hahaha.. but now its more like anything that actually makes sense and I'll end up needing
21) Fave 'normal' drink: OJ with lots of pulp
22) Fave Persons to talk to online: Ana, Patrick

-----------RIGHT NOW------------------
23) Wearing right now: jeans and my favorite adidas blue sweatshirt
24) Hair is: sleep hair
25) Eating: nothing
26) Drinking: nothing
27) Thinking about: where to go tonight
28) Listening to: my brother play THPS
29) Talking to: Ana
30) Cried: no?
31) Worn a skirt: no?
32) Met someone new: last time? probably in school
33) Done laundry: Not ever. thumbs up for moms
34) Drove a car: Drove to school and back

---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN-------------
35) Yourself: 99% of the time
36) Your friends: No.
37) Santa Claus: For the first six years of my life yes! Best six years ever
38) Tooth Fairy: no chops dont have tooth faries
39) Destiny/Fate: Definately not.
40) Angels: No
41) Ghosts: No
42) UFOs: No. I don't believe in much that I can't physically see.

------------FRIENDS AND LIFE----------------
43) Look Like anyone: Brad Pitt
44) Who's the loudest: Jeff
45) Who's the weirdest: Brian
46) Who do you cry to: Ana?, and anyone really
47) What's the best feeling in the world: too many to name but ill try... coming up clean on the first wipe and cumming in her mouth would have to come one/two though
48) Worst Feeling: burning dirareaha, hitting my toe on random shit, turning my ankle, throwing up
Current Music: Foreiner-Jukebox Hero

Interesting Developments

Fri, 18 Feb 2005 18:13:49 GMT

I have just discovered that I have the symptoms for Strokes.

I learned this by watching Sportscenter. Patriots Linebacker Tedy Brushi had a minor stroke (my prayers were answered) and they said some of the symptoms for stroke are blurred vision, headaches, and numbness of the body. At times I get those 3 all at once. I'm not even kidding either. I don't really tell people for the fear of sounding like a moron.. ya know "hey my face is numb and haha now my hand ha now my face too!" doesn't sound normal.. But maybe I've told Ana once.

I think it just hit me that I'm gonna be one of those middle aged people that is always in and out of the doctors offices. We all know how much I love doctors! Screw that, if I have to go at 40 I'm going.

Doesn't matter when I get off the bus I'm not going anywhere! (Only Kristen will get that.)

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 19:47:06 GMT

Only in Newark can you see...

1. A person drive to within 10 feet of the drive through at a bank and proceed to WALK OUT AND STAND THERE to do their transaction. Hey jerkoff, its a drive through! You pass with your fucking car! No need to get out!

and..

2. A few people carrying a COMPUTER in POURING RAIN.

I saw this within a span of 5 minutes while walking to CVS the other day. Stupid immigrants. Having a brain should be a requirement to get into this country.

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 16:58:20 GMT

I just found one of the absolute coolest things I have ever seen. On the kitchen table was an old envelope with some old letters so being the nosy bastard I am, I looked in there. I pulled out a random letter and its my mom's hardwriting. It was a letter to my dad from late 89 when he had been here for about a year and we were still there.

It's really awkward to read that kinda stuff. She starts off every letter with "como estas por ai? vem eu espero." Yup, she can't spell bem. And referring to my dad as "Amor" every other word is quite strange to say the least.

Man, was she proud that I learned to count to 5. She wrote almost a whole letter about it.

I tried to read one of my dad's letters back to her but I can barely understand a word cause he writes like a savage. Still, it was really cool to see something like that.

The last post was a perfect segue to...

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 20:58:23 GMT

Lennon - God

God is a Concept by which
we measure our pain
I'll say it again
God is a Concept by which
we measure our pain
I don't believe in magic
I don't believe in I-ching
I don't believe in Bible
I don't believe in Tarot
I don't believe in Hitler
I don't believe in Jesus
I don't believe in Kennedy
I don't believe in Buddha
I don't believe in Mantra
I don't believe in Gita
I don't believe in Yoga
I don't believe in Kings
I don't believe in Elvis
I don't believe in Zimmerman
I don't believe in Beatles
I just believe in me...and that reality

The dream is over
What can I say?
the Dream is Over
Yesterday
I was the Dreamweaver
But now I'm reborn
I was the Walrus
But now I'm John
and so dear friends
you'll just have to carry on
The Dream is over

I agree with Lennon. I definately understand that people at times feel the need to believe in some sort of greater being. God is just like the other things he lists. People just rely on what they're told and don't actually BELIEVE any of it. They just "measure their pain" like whenever they're suffering is when they turn to God. No real famous and succesful person gives two shits about a god because they don't have a reason to. (This quickly turned into a bunch of non-sensical rambles huh..)

Anyway, I like how Lennon says "I just believe in me." Such a simple line yet so effective. How about just believing in yourself and your higher power instead of all the gibberish put into the Bible by regular people like you and me. He doesn't believe in Bibles, Jesus, Church, Yoga, Beatles and so forth. Those (or their followers) are just a collection of people and not actually beliefs. (I realize this doesn't make sense to whoever is reading this. It makes sense to me but I'm having a hard time putting it into words..)

MORE RELIGION STUFF--
Agnostic
The chapel looms against the sky,
Above the vine-clad shelves,
And as the peasants pass it by
They cross themselves.
But I alone, I grieve to state,
Lack sentiment divine:
A citified sophisticate,
I make no sign.

Their gesture may a habit be,
Mechanic in a sense,
Yet somehow it awakes in me
Strange reverence.
And though from ignorance it stem,
Somehow I deeply grieve,
And wish down in my heart like them
I could believe.

Suppose a cottage I should buy,
And little patch of vine,
With pure and humble spirit I
Might make the Sign.
Aye, though I godless way I go,
And sceptic in my trend,
A faith in something I don't know
Might save me in the end.

Robert Service

I love that poem and it's exactly how I feel. A faith I don't know might save me in the end. I find myself thinking of the sign of the cross as "mechanic" and lacking any meaning at all so to see another guy thinking along exactly the same lines as me was pretty damn cool. After reading some of Robert Service's other stuff I think it's safe to say that I actually like a poet.

Agnostic Apology

I am a stout materialist;
With abstract terms I can't agree,
And so I've made a little list
Of words that don't make sense to me.
To fool my reason I refuse,
For honest thinking is my goal;
And that is why I rarely use
Vague words like Soul.

In terms of matter I am sure
This world of our can be defined;
And so with theories obscure
I will not mystify my mind;
And though I use it more or less,
Describing alcoholic scenes,
I do not know, I must confess,
What Spirit means.

When I survey this cosmic scene,
The term "Creator" seems absurd;
The Universe has always been,
Creation never has occurred.
But in my Lexicon of Doubt
It strikes me definitely odd,
One word I never dare to flout,
One syllable the mountains shout,
Three letters that the stars spell out:
GOD.

Another one with the same message and just as good if not better. Thumbs up Rob Service.

Sheep go to Heaven.. Goats go to Hell

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 18:24:02 GMT

I’m not feeling alright today
I’m not feeling that great
I’m not catching on fire today
Life has started to fade
I’m not going to smile today
I’m not gonna laugh
You’re out living it up today
I’ve got dues to pay

And the grave-digger puts on the forceps
The stone mason does all the work
The barber can give you a haircut
The carpenter can take you out to lunch

I just want to play on my pan-pipes
I just want to drink me some wine
As soon as your born you start dying
So you might as well have a good time

Sheep go to heaven
Goats go to hell

I don’t wanna go to sunset strip
I don’t wanna feel the emptiness
Bold marquees with stupid band names
I don’t wanna go to sunset strip

And the grave-digger puts on the forceps
The stone mason does all the work
The barber can give you a haircut
The carpenter can take you out to lunch

I just want to play on my pan-pipes
I just want to drink me some wine
As soon as your born you start dying
So you might as well have a good time

Sheep go to heaven
Goats go to hell

GO TO HELL

GO TO HELL

HAHAHAHhahahahahahahaahahah

Cake is Godly.